The Making of a Matriarch

My husband is pulling his 24 at the station tonight, my daughter is spending the night with my mother, and the house seems rather calm and still for the first time in days.  My two-year-old is staying up past midnight for the second night in a row, but he’s singing to himself now, so it shouldn’t be much longer until the ole eyelids give up the ghost.

I’m still extremely unsettled with my daughter’s situation.  Being the weekend, I can’t reach anyone by phone to get a plan in place for dealing with her next “event,” for lack of a better word.  She seemed in rather good spirits today and we have told her to stop all the medications for fear that is what triggered all of this inability to control her thoughts and her struggle to think rationally.  She and her grandma were going to do a little shopping and veg out in front of the TV tonight.  A bit of a break for everyone. 

I’m feeling much improved today, but still not exactly well.  I can’t decide if it is more physical or emotional exhaustion.  Maybe a little of both.  I’m really dreading the upcoming week.  All of these “life-altering” events are coming too quickly and I’m wondering how much longer I can keep up.

I’m looking forward to a little day-trip up north to spend my dad’s birthday with him.  He’s turning 60, but doesn’t want anything special.  Yes… a lot of people just say that, but I know my dad and he means it!  When I asked him what he would like for his birthday, he told me, “Spending the day with you would be the best thing I can think of.”  He’s such a suck up!  Ha, ha.  So the plan is to leave here the morning of the 29th, take him to lunch, and just spend the rest of the day catching up in person.  I haven’t told him yet, but I was also thinking of inviting Mom (his ex) along.  She hasn’t been back home since we buried her mother and she has especially wanted to visit the cemetary since her husband passed.  My parents actually get along better now than they ever have, so I don’t see it being a problem.  Dad might enjoy the company.  He likes being the center of attention.  I will also have the chance to spend a little time with my grandmother.  Much needed time.

The boy is out!  Think I’ll prowel the kitchen for a late night pick me up.  I have to fast tomorrow night for a glucose test Monday morning and I can’t help nibbling all the things I know I’ll be thinking about this time tomorrow!